....when a person sees a squirrel being chased by a bird...that somehow reminds them of me.

just a thought.

at least i'd have a spiffy furry tail that I could whip people in the face with.


So..today i'm being random. It's not unusual for me in person but usually when I write a blog I go somewhere with it. This one, I shall not. No one reads this anyways so WHY NOT!?

But...before I get all random: I moved. I am now a Massachus-ion? Ah, Kingston. My over creative imagination allows me to find things to do but I haven't really met anyone around here. But I kind of like it...the solitude allows me to open my mind a little more. Spend more time doing things I never had the time to do. So I guess it's positive at the moment.

I've become incredibly overtaken by classic/old movies. I now find myself sometimes talking like how they use to. I'm such a weirdo but I definitely think I was born in the wrong time era. I loved the way they use to dress, even though I probably wouldn't be able to breathe with a corset on. And new movies are just dull. I love movies where everyone is so proper and sophisticated. It actually showed that we had and used our intelligence. Also, i've been watching millions of foreign films. Those are great too. Andddd while i'm on the subject of "classic" stuff...I've become the typical 60 year old woman and have started to read every novel written by Jane Austen. I also started to read "Twilight" just to see what all the hype was about...and to know what i'd be getting into before I watch the movie whenever it comes out.

SPEAKING of movies...HARRY POTTER! UGH! i'm pissed they moved the release date until next year, how rude! No really, that was definitely not needed. Like I haven't been crazed enough as it is waiting. Even though the books are better and i'm still convinced I would have made a much better Hermione lol.

Well, I guess I didn't turn out TOO random..and I could keep writing but oh well...ta ta for now.

note to self; Watch these movies:  Brideshead Revisited, The Fall, Coffee and Cigarettes, Garden Party, Sixty Six, Transsiberian, Under the Same Moon, Bolt, Son of Rambo, Priceless, The Edge of Heaven, and The Visitor.

oh and I foolishly forgot to mention.....WALL-E COMES OUT TODAY!!! woooo i'm headin to see in it an half hour. Pixar, one day I shall work with you. (oh and I saw the movie Fierce People yesterday and it was quite good. Check it out.)
 
 (Wall-E graffiti I did on Facebook)

Holy moley..i'm making a record number of posts!! Haha..I'm never on this but I have the day off and what am I doing? Sitting on the computer. Of course, after my fun wild adventures. =P
So, I have two things on my mind. But before I get to those two things: I think i'm moving. We might be moving to a small town in Massachusetts. I've never even been to that state before haha..i'm afraid it'll be hard to meet people and i'll just become a hermit stuck inside her home all the time. We'll see. but ok so the two things:

One: I'm doomed. I feel as though i've really screwed myself over. I don't think my life goals are really going to pan out the way I thought they would. I was going to try to be a digital animator (my dream was to work with Pixar) but now I feel as though I don't have enough talent for it. It's some damn hard work and it takes a lot of time but there are so many people out there that are already a million times better then me and as years go on it just becomes more advanced...i feel like i'm too far behind and there's no catching up. Of course i'm interested in other types of art (photography, ceramics, sketching, painting, film, theater..so on) but it's almost as if any type of sense I had made for my life is gone and now i'm just a wondering empty sack....melting into the shadows. That sounds emo (what a terrible word) but oh well.
second: I NEVER look through magazines and I NEVER watch reality tv shows but for the past couple weeks I have...and all I have to ask is: WHY!?!??! Why do people get so wrapped up in these people? They are PEOPLE just like anyone else! Why do you care about their every move...what they do at all hours of the day...who they are with and whether or not they are pregnant??! I just don't get it. I've dated a couple "famous" people in the past and guess what? They were not different from anyone else. They have just sought a career that happens to show their face a lot but in the end it is just a career like everyone else. I just don't understand. But again, oh well.

That's all. Oh and from my last post about Japan: here are some pictures:













(picture i drew when i got bored)



that's only like 20 pictures out of 400 haha

oh by the way....I finally made it to Japan!
I was there for a few weeks...in some ways I was disappointed, but in others extremely suprised. The bad thing was: the people there are extremely racist!! I would have never imagined in my life I would have been treated that way. Everyone, and I mean everyone, stares at you...and not in a good way. I was confronted by plenty of people, yelled at in japanese, told to leave, and refused service. Some people were nice and polite but for the most part they all hated me. "Gaijin," incase you don't know, is a bad word for a foreigner. I was called that a good number of times. BUT!! It was extremely beautiful there!! Never could have imagined such beautiful sites. We climbed two mountains, including Hakone and Fuji. We travelled all over Tokyo and visted pretty much all the touristy sites. I must say that i LOVEEE the country side a whole lot more then i do the busy city/tokyo side. Tokyo just reminded me of New York City times 4 and in a different language and much cleaner haha. The kanji symbols made it a little tough to figure out how to get around and what to say but I made due with the japanese that I had learned, enough to get by anyways. And I love how there is no tax there and they don't believe in tipping haha.
All in all, it was a wonderful experience. If I ever decide to go back though i'll definitely make sure to learn fluent Japanese so I can yell at people back haha.

Next summer i'll be in Turkey for a few weeks then Hawaii for a month. And I might be back-packing through Europe with Jessica. But we'll see. Ta ta for now.

Bleh, my page is disgustingly pink...but it was the only thing I could find to update it with since i'm too lazy to make my own.
Again, it's been like a year and a half since i've used this thing. I don't know why I always randomly come back to it. But I figure I might as well add a post since i'm on it...

Soo...it's summer, a break from college...but I started a new job that is horrible. I've already started mentioning a two-week notice, hah. I think my creativity just won't allow me to succumb to a boring, regular job. It makes me feel like i'm just constantly having a brain fart haha. Pretty much all I do now with my free time is relax with friends, read, and watch movies. I feel like i'm 80 years old already. But maybe that's not such a bad thing...80 year olds are suppose to by wise and full of knowledge, right? I feel like I went from being a child to a senior citizen in a time period of a few months...completely skipped the teenage years, oh except for those nasty hormones and that awful thing called puberty. I'm also being very sarcastic with most of the things i'm saying in this.

But yeah...people now know me as the girl who brings a blanket and pudding (or some type of small/transferable snack) to the movies with her. OHHH speaking of movies...Wall-E comes out next week!! AHhh, i'm terribly excited!! Pixar, my future working space...oh how I love you.

Welp. I'm bored already so I'm going to make this a "short" post. Till next year hehe
-Eris.

<-- a recent photo of myself.

yeah as always i randomly get on here after like a year or two of not writing. Somedays i just get really bored so I randomly look at my old sites. So ta-da, i'm writing. So i'm not in high school anymore and i'm pretty much a loser cause i chose to take a year off before going to college. And now it's getting close to the fall [as in my year is almost up] and i'm JUST NOW putting in my college application to College of Charleston and i'm pretty sure I won't get accepted because my SAT scores were horrible and it's so late in the game. My GPA was alright it was a 3.7 but still....ugh, i suck. But the break was REALLY nice lol i got to travel a lot and worked a little bit so saved up some money and chilled with friends. A lot of horrible things have happened since though as well. Like....Hugo broke up with me after after a year and half. We were talkin about marriage and all sorts...HE brought that up not me so made it seem like he was head over heels for me which i guess he was until one day he just decided i'm not the one for him and broke it off...i took it very badly, still am...i went a week without eating cause i was so sick to my stomach about it all and then stephanie and my managers helped me get back on track eating wise. It's been about a month and a half since it's happened and i still think about him everyday and can't stop thinking about him...i love him so much and it kills me to know he doesn't love me anymore. He slept with Anna Butler who was my friend....that killed me even more. I dunno what to do...everyone keeps tellin me i'll find someone else but I don't WANT anyone else...bleh. Then two weeks after that my friend Adam Botello got in a serious car accident and was put in a drug-induced coma for a longgg time and had a screw put into his head to release pressure and a metal rod stuck in his leg. He had a lot of trouble recovering, they pronounced him dead on the site, and then later told us that he would have the brain of a child for the rest of his life. But just the other day they let him come home and he's doing sooo much better...he's standing on his own, talking a lot, and almost back to normal! it's so great. But a week after his accident i went to California just to chill at the San Fransisco University dorms with Jason but the day i arrived i got a phone call from hugo telling me there was a car accident...i thought maybe he was just talkin about Adam but no, he was talking about one of my best friends Francis Nguyen. He said he didn't make it. Francis was driving with his friend Grant and for some reason they swirved a little to the right of the road and then he overcorrected and swirved to the left and hit a truck. I was in California when the funeral went on so everyone was there and got to say their last goodbyes except me. I felt like I was dying inside with what all was happening. I still do. I've never felt like i've lost so much in my life before...i feel like i've even lost myself. When i got back from California Francis' family took me out to dinner and then to his burial site...which was really nice. I think about him and hugo every morning....and occasionally during the day. There are moments when i space out even if someone is talking to me and start thinking about them and other things that have happened in my life. I know everyone goes through these things but...i'm not as strong as everyone else. I want Hugo back, I want Francis back...i want i want i want, i'm so selfish. But I really do feel like i'm dying without them...

i'm sucha depressing person.

i miss kevin
and i regret a lot of things.

Ok so i'm never on here but i decided to today...it is spring break, yay for that but that's not what im going to write about...

So prom...it's my senior year and i've never been to prom and i figured i'll prolly never go cause no one has asked me *cries* I feel so unloved but ALAS i was talkin to mason at work the other day and we were talkin about a certain someone and he mentioned that the certain someone was talkin about how he was thinkin of asking me to prom!! AHHHH....that'd be so crazy if he did woot i'd feel like a princess lol but i'm not sure if he will or not..i hope so cause i'd really like to go. But really guys: WHY NOT ME?! lol why doesn't anyone wanna ask me? how rude. lol...gosh what a loser i must be.

But yeah...just wanted to share my lil tid-bit of exciting news. Woo...
~Calle

I can't believe i'm updating...it's been....FOREVER!! Ah, how weird it is to come back to this lil site lol that no one prolly looks at anymore...po livejournal *Sniffle* a long with xanga...wow it's been a while for that one too. Anywho: Quick update: I'm doing better then before...i've been feelin better and working so i've got my own money to spend so i don't have to rely on others so much. I'm not exactly sure what i'm going to do from now on now that it's getting pretty damn close to school being out...college isn't really my thing. Everyone is so excited over it and i'm just like...yeah...haven't sent any applications or anything. So overall: i'll be a bum on the street =D. Say hi to me if u so me, don't be a prick and throw eggs at me. I'm watching the Wedding Singer right now!! woo...that was random but i love this movie ^.^ and i've been up to my ears in AP projects...i'm really tired of it...i work so hard to get a bad grade cause of things being late cause we have a new project EVERY monday. Arg >.< it's ridiculous. People who take all AP classes are INSANE. I have one AP class and one Honor class and that's just about all i can take....can't even really do that lol. Why can't people just get money without having education to such a high level? lol...ok that was a dumb question but arg i'm so tired of work...we work and work just so we can get money to have a happy life and by the time we are done working the only thing we do with our money is use it to survive in a nursing home cause by then we are too damn old to do anything. Yeah...well, speakin of work i have work tomorrow so i guess i might as well get off this thing. Peace people! no idea when i'll write again...
♥

~*Calle*~

Just to Teddy:
I'm at the school right now and i looked up ur site *ardent games* and the computers here won't allow it cause it has the word "games" in it so it automatically closes the web browser...grrr!!! Soooo for that coding that takes away the title/url ur gunna have to find a root url or something so that we can open it at school...i derno, just thought i'd update u since i'ma administrator now haha =D
~*Dolly*~